Nightmares

Going to have a pity-party. So tired of nightmares. Plagued since childhood. No one able to explain, no one really able to look me in the eye and give me a reason. Might have an avenue now, might, and won’t get hopes up too much.

I don’t even know where these subconscious ideas, that’s what so many people say they are, come from. I wish they would just go away. I can’t deal with it. I, I, I…I’m tired, so frigging tired. I’m always more tired than everyone else. How’s that for a frigging self-pity rant. I’m so tired of being so involved internally. So tired of dreading sleep.